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MY MOST DEVASTATING CASE ITEM WAS SELF CAUSED
I have, at long last, found and unlocked the most devastating and crippling involuntary replication on my case.
There were too many nuances as to why and how come it was so devastating to my wellbeing . . . but now I know and understand the why and what of it, it is all understood and now manageable.
But I must warn you all. Being willing and able to confront and then experience this item did take some courage. I almost backed off from it, as that was part of its involuntary replication (I/R) content designed to protect me from the damage to me as a Spiritual Presence as it had originally, and continually in the past, caused.
The key to it is and was that it was a solution to handle a “what I did not want to experience.” But this with such horrific force and ugliness that I could not get near it.
The sequence of the event(s) that caused this “item” to be created was this. (And I am still spotting and unlocking parts of the Time Trail as I address the area to write this for you).
In “The Gods Games” Spiritual Domain of Existence I began to accumulate friends and co-creators who would create pleasures for me just as we did in the Supreme Beings Universe.
In response I would add life-force to reinforce and add persistence to the sensation . . . rather similar to how we did in The Supreme Beings Universe except the Supreme Beings it was all NOW in the present, no concept of future.
This game and domain of Spiritual Existence of Unity I am referring to we now refer to as “The Home Universe”
However, as we now know, goofs occurred including some evil actions wherein we were hoodwinked and conned by nasty types to add our Life Force to imagery and creations that were actually destructive to our wants and wellbeing.
This Domain of Existence we now refer to as The Evil Beings Universe . . . and it was here that we were led astray and induced to unwittingly actually use our own power against ourselves.
In any event my intent and belief was that I was empowering my existence and a positive, but it blew up in my face, with the resulting shock that I could not trust myself to empower myself and create positives.
It was a shocking and painful incident, the content of which, any time I got near it the I/R solution of “don’t go there, stay out! don’t do it. It’ll kill you,” ejected me and commanded me not to be “there” at or within that part of myself.
I must say, I do feel better now those negative forces have been dealt with!
You Old Timers will remember we used to have the idea of "the Engram Necessary to Resolve the Case" . . . well, I'd say this was mine.
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