Elevator games or best ways to hide from yourself

April 03, 2022, 12:15:11 PM

I was surprised when Roger asked me about past ascensions some weeks ago. I thought "It wasn't a big deal", although later realised that in the back of my mind I knew it was significant, and in fact contributed to some big life changes and a shift in my levels of existence about a dozen years ago. So how it was possible that I was both acknowledging it to myself and at the same time downplaying it as "not a big deal"? Now it is clear — it's compartmentalisation, or what psychologists would probably call split personality. But what was the point of downplaying and invalidating past ascensions? It was required in order to cover up the screw-up of how I dealt with the ascension. I wanted to reap the benefits of increased energy, abilities and understanding while avoiding learning and educating myself about the new level of existence I suddenly found myself in. The approach I chose was to keep my old rules, keep my old ethics, keep my old understanding but use new and upgraded abilities to achieve old un-upgraded goals. This manifested as "do the same old thing" but better and with more intensity. The best analogy using the old tech terminology would probably be "a cleared cannibal"

That did work for a while, but, as any self-regulating system, it eventually was balanced out by increased turbulence and reality biting.

One observation I picked up from this is that invalidating and downplaying ascensions and case gains is in fact a covert harmful act towards self, literally a kept — "oops, I screwed up.. but it's not really a big deal, in fact, too insignificant to even be aware of it and remember; there's nothing in there". Hence the need to wrap it into old newspapers and hide it away from ourselves. 8-)

Now that I look back at it I realise that in fact case gains are never "lost" – they become part of our experience and serve as building blocks for the next step. It enriches us as spiritual beings, even if it takes decades or lifetimes to digest those experiences. As one source said "there are no errors in Creation".

Re: Elevator games or best ways to hide from yourself

Reply #1 – April 04, 2022, 02:31:27 AM

Nice write-up, CC . . .

You have articulated very nicely the convoluted stupidities with which our aberrated think screws things up!

It takes courage and honesty to work our way out of the stupid trap we have put ourselves in . . . of course it all seemed correct and logical in the beginning

but then came the later consequences

I wonder how many of you have spotted the why/what that you acted to solve those many moons ago . . .

Rog

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Re: Elevator games or best ways to hide from yourself

Reply #2 – April 05, 2022, 05:55:37 PM

I was guilty of using processing to empower the same game, same identities for many, many years. I would empower my pursuit of "the same old thing but with more intensity". It seemed safe and I was addicted to the recycled wins I could achieve. To leave my comfortable level of existence and comfortable identities and games for something new was too scary (way too charged

). This is not to say there is anything wrong with this approach of using processing for it certainly helped me keep my performance high.

Now that I have been pursuing starting and building a new business as opposed to having a job in corporate America, I know why I chose to keep repeating empowering my known identities and goals. Upgrading my level of existence with new identities in a new game has been very, very charged and quite full of fear. Thank goodness for Processing or I would've had to abandon this new path because of too much charge.